If you know me, then you know that for the past 3 years, I have been battling a few things in my life. Anything from personal relationships, to family relationships, to hurtful words, to the ex-husband, to being talked about, even to my own inner conflicts.
Last night as I sat outside in the cool evening air, I did a LOT of thinking. A lot of reflecting on what the heck is going on with me. All these memories (good and bad) rolled across my brain. Some brought me to tears and some made me smile and laugh.
Some of those memories, I look back on and wonder why am I being blamed for it because they were completely out of my control? Other memories make me wonder what the hell I was thinking.
And because of that, I stayed away from a lot of people. I withdrew and kept to myself.
But what I decided after all this soul searching I did, and of course, speaking with a few friends, was this.....I am NOT my past. I will no longer carry the hurt and burden of the past on my shoulders.
My TRUE friends will always be there to cry with me and to laugh with me....no matter what!! As quoted by one of my friends, "I say "F" all them!!!" (girl....you know who you are). And honestly, that's just what I needed to hear! So, I say Thank You to my dear friend for waking me out of this fog I've been in for the last 3 years.
With this, the time has come for me to refocus myself. I have a beautiful and kind-hearted little girl that I need to rededicate myself to (not that I wasn't already). But she deserves to have a mom that is 100% focused!
Much love to all my friends that continue to stand by me!! You have no idea just how much it means to me!!
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